College Life

So it has been a month of classes here at Lake Superior State University and already I am adjusting. I have a regular group of friends, classes are awesome, and I have joined a few different groups. Its crazy to think that I am in college and doing completely different things. I am procrastinating on doing my data homework which is due at 9 am tomorrow. Weird to say that I like an older man (never thought I would ever say that) and someone my age at the same time. However much I like the guy I think that maybe I have made a mistake. Don't get me wrong there are relationships that ca work with age difference but then there are relationships where the age difference is a HUGE factor in deciding just how far you want it to go. I just cannot make up my mind on whether I want this to work out or if I want to nip in the bud. Its hard because relationships have never really been my thing. In fact, I prefer to be single. I like not having to be attached to someone or have to wonder what my significant other is doing or saying about us. I like have the freedom to do as I please whenever I please. My friends that I have made up here are awesome and I would not trade them for anything. EVER. As I learned today I am to expect a surprise tomorrow or sometime this week about whether or not I am accepted into the sorority Rho Chi Omega. I am so...hoping I am because I think it will be a great opportunity for me and the friends I will gain will stick with me forever. I really want to do something different with my life and I think that by doing this I can finally jump out of my everyday routine. I am also a member of SIFE. Which is something similar to DECA and I always wanted to be apart of our high school team, but had confict of interests. I kind of regret that in the long run because I would not feel like such a newbie at this I feel like I would have had more experience to know what to do. Then again the field of study I am in is not exactly what I had planned to do with my life either. What I really wanted was to teach and to be around kids because I thought it might be something I was good at, but to my father that just was not going to happen. I may not be perfect at editing my writing, but I have always had a certain "calling" to english. It just fits. I love reading; I will read anything and everything. I LOVE IT! In case you are wondering well my field of study is business marketing. Now I know you do not think that is a bad place to be, but for me I could just lay down and die. Essentially that is probably what will happen all the credits I take this year will most likely transfer into IPFW back home. And maybe there I can do some gen ed studies find out what really peaks my interest and then start my college career. Oh well. ANyway back to this guy I really just do not know what to do at all. I like the guy, but at the same time we are reaching some strange boundaries with age.

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Its a new year which means it is time to start fresh. I have not been blogging for quite some time and I forgot how much I enjoyed it. I have unfortunately had little time to be reading, but the book I have read include The Hunger Games, Clockwork Prince, and Swear. I have to say I am absolutely, head-over-heals in love with The Hunger Games! I had started to read them a little while back when they were stil fresh and eventually dropped them for something else. Well when I saw that many of my friends were reading the books I decided to pick them up again. I finished in a weekend. I could not put them down. The intensity and suspense in this futuristic world was just enticing. I have to say the romance was not a strong in this book as the others I have read such as Twilight or House of Night. I think that was why I liked these books better than previous ones I have read. Sometimes I feel like the plot of a story is smuthered by the writers getting caught up in the idealistic romance. I hate that about many of the books today. If I had to choose between one of the boys, I would choose Peeta. Whole-heartedly he is probably the complete contrast of everyone around him. Sometimes he has no filter and just spits out whatever comes to his mind, but that is what I relate with in his personality. As much as I want to doubt that Katniss never loved Peeta there is clearly a strong connection between the two. Katniss believes in doing whatever it takes to get back home and in the process of saving not only herself, but Peeta as well she discovers her true feelings. I think because of the suffering and little opportunity given to her district, Katniss supresses her feelings almost as if she is numb. As we read though this uncracked shell of emotional defect breaks into millions of pieces. After being forced into another games and facing her "duty" as the symbolic Mockingjay, She slowly begins to break down. Her life that she has always known is in turmoil and its as if she has no way of figuring out how to fix this break in her routine. I think by the end both Peeta and Katniss become so damaged as people that it would be difficult to be numb. Because of the things they have been through because of the things they have seen because of the things they had to put up with for that period of time it would be strange for the couple not to feel completely raw. I mean by the time the book ends there are some things that cannot be changed and that is what makes the two raw. There is nothing left to hide behind, no more walls of numbness, no more normal. In the end, you have to wonder what will happen to the world and what will happen to these two children. What will their world be like? Another thing you could think about it the perspective of reality. I mean there are some fight to the death obsticles in countries throughtout the world. And to some people this could very well be the type of lifestyle these people live in. Its horrifying but the truth is not always beautiful is it?